The Judge
09/12/19 Categories: Inner Judge | Evil Inclination
A monster in my head.
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I was wrestling with a tyrant, that “inner judge,” last night. I dreamed that I was really fighting for my life. This ancient enemy has always been intent on devouring and destroying each enlightened human soul.
A wise and wile adversary has been crouching at the door, waiting for an opportunity, waiting to attack, determined to keep the world immersed in deep, perpetual dark. It’s not my voice that whispers those self-loathing toxic ‘facts,’ it’s the serpent from the garden, a liar from the past.
You are the only universal entity with the power to make me feel like crap. You know all my sins, you count my flaws like rare and priceless gems. You know all the many facets and you gloat with satisfaction while you gleefully expose them to the brilliant light of truth.
You grab all my mistakes from their hiding places, thorns and all, each bitter nuance, every distinct discrepancy, now no longer concealed in the darkness of the soul’s black night. They are old and crusty now, from decades rotting, stored away in dank dark vaults, in hidden subconscious chambers of the heart.
And now, you pound your heavy gravel on the judgment bench of time. “Found guilty, you declare! You missed an opportunity, you blew that test big time! Your cruel indifference, your unconscious mind, you delivered such cruel severity, now your ass is mine! You cannot be forgiven, not a chance for such a crime! You’re doomed to live forever in the crucible of shame.”
But like a champion warrior, I arose to the occasion, I stood up, I cleared away the grime and purified the crime. With confidence and power, I stepped up to the bench and received an affidavit of graduation sublime.
The evil inclination must really be panicking to come after us with such vengeance - even after decades of soul searching and tshuvah, the ‘evil inclination’ never stops trying to destroy us.
Blessings,
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